Therapy

First Session

First session
first thing
she says

“You may lie
to me
at
some point
but
know
I’ll never
be disappointed”

She never was

 

Three Sessions

Session one
she kept
saying
“I know”

Session two
she kept
saying
“I understand:”

Session three
I finally
asked
“did you have
anorexia”

“I did”

I
instantly
trusted her more

She wasn’t just
book smart
she had
lived
through this

She recovered
I could
too

 

Who I Am

I told
her
I was
being
argumentative today

“I’m sorry”

She smiled

“You get to be
whoever you are
in the moment
in this office
don’t
apologize”

 

Texting

Since day one
I had always
sent her
messages
throughout the week

I went a week
without a single message
to her

That Friday
the first thing
she said
was
“it was really weird
not getting texts”
she sat down
“I was worried
about you
but
kept
telling myself
if you needed
something
you would let me know”

I smiled
“it was weird
wasn’t it”

 

No No No

She asked me
what I needed

“More sleeping pills”
was my
answer

Her hands flew
in front of
her
“no no no no
no more
sleeping pills
for you”

I told her
I know

“No
promise me
you won’t

take any
more
than prescribed”

I promised

 

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Rachelle Cameron has been writing for about ten years. Writing is her way of processing her life. These poems describe her therapy sessions and the moments that helped her along the journey toward recovery, as she discovered that she wants to become an eating disorder specialist and someday open her own treatment center.

 

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